Exploration of the past

Today's overall architecture and buildings bore me. I found them to be superficial and lacking in creativity. Now Kirkbride buildings are exemplary and to fathom what the meaning behind his genius structure one must research, which is what I did. Few know what i enjoy doing when bored and or given the opportunity, well I like to find abandoned buildings and explore them. Yes, they appear to be guile and some of his structures seem to cast a dark shadow over the area in which they reside. Many misconstrue his purpose. Yet, if one were to only read about him and what he set out to do one would understand why his buildings, for the mentally insane, are so beautiful in such a dark way. Personally I find them quite placid. The front of the building protrudes into the grounds and the rest falls behind in an almost zig-zag pattern. The front of his buildings can come off as a bit stark, but they are usually so detailed and stunning that such a detail can be overlooked. Most people know that health care for the mentally disturbed was not good and many were mistreated and most of the homes were in horrible condition. Kirkbride attempted to help matters by building glorious, giant, mansion like hospitals. His buildings were designed to allow the patient sufficient fresh air and sunshine because he felt that this is what a disturbed person needed. Unfortunately his buildings did not stay with such a goal in mind and as they become more crowded with those who needed to be hospitalized they grew to be in a disreputable state. Many over the years were torn down, unfortunately, including the Columbus state hospital. I think it is sad that we let such beautiful work and history get torn to the ground. Organizations with integrity do exist and they are trying to preserve the few that remain. Some now house tours and hold overnight stays for those interested in ghosts or staying in such a work of art. Still, so many go unnoticed and are crumbling to the ground.

http://www.kirkbridebuildings.com/

Ugly people can't come

What should one do when met with criticism or insult? What should one do when called ugly? Picture it: you are in a room with your friends, a certain person not in the room gets mentioned and then things said person said get brought up until, unfortunately, you learn of what said person said. They insulted you, called you ugly, said you were unworthy. What to do? Of course the truth came out at such an inopportune time, you are with friends, freaking out is not an option. Cry? I think not! Letting them see your weakness is unacceptable. One must stay stately in this situation. Knowing that this comment would upset anyone "friends" try to bring you solace, but it does not help. The damage is done. It was explicit and it extirpated you. "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never harm me" is a load of crap. Words hurt, they get inside the mind and remind you of your many imperfections. The fact that your so called friend even let you know of such behind the back talk, well, it almost seems like a premeditated slap to the face. I can see it now. "Hahahaha. I am worthy, you are not you ugly brute!" High school, filled with frivolous crap and shallow people ready to kick you straight in the mouth. Anyway, back to the moment. As your "friend" sits there, with what looks like a malicious grin, telling you of your ugliness, you realize you cannot lose control. You find the strength to suppress the anger and sorrow rising up within the throat. Put on a stolid face and utter the most common and false statement, "I'm fine." They are almost officious with the amount of sucking up. Said friend tries to play it off like she didn't mean to hurt you, she udders "I am sorry" and gives you a hug. All the while you think "wow, how full of crap."  In this moment, you are ominous, knowing exactly what her intentions were. You just want to grow rampant, and if there were not consequences, you would probably march to the person's house who insulted you and clock him right in the mouth. So what to do when in this situation, well you have two choices: remain dignified and simply brush off your shoulders and forget about it or go out throwing punches.